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lyrics

I think, I understand cutting now

as much as someone who doesn’t do it can.

I know the feeling of ‘I can’t live in this skin.
’
The feeling of ‘when’s this hurt gonna end?
’
The feeling of-
‘How to get rid of this pain?’

‘How to distract my brain?’

I think I understand cutting now.
Divorcing oneself from the

huh huh huh,

gasping midnight wake
shivering shaking
quake.

I thought I was gonna die,

but here I heave and heave and lie.
Here I heave and heave and lie.

I think, I understand cutting now,
when there’s no other choice.
When you can’t see beyond.
When this moment is all.
When I’m feeling so small and I cannot grip...

Every signpost lost.

No touchstone heals.

No distraction to be found.
No song to be sung.

No words to be read.

No salve for the wound.
No spot that is safe.

No respite.

No grace.

I think I understand, cutting now.
Layer layer layers thick,
all my lives heaped like bricks;
covering inadequacies
covering insecurity

walling up the interior.


Covering what’s past and done and gone
safe from probing exteriors.
Buried deep

so deep I cannot reach-

down 

down

down

so deep.


Only revealed on the cusp of sleep
when defences are released.
When I’m almost at peace,
Then the jerk

pulling up.
The breathless inhale

as I flail I flail

and there it is-

though I’d hoped last time was the final time,
but here it is
the gasp gasp gasp
the huh huh huh

gasping midnight wake

shivering shaking
quake

and I think...

I think, I think I understand cutting now.

credits

from NoteSpeak 12, released February 24, 2023
Lisa Marie Simmons - Lead Vocal, Lyrics, Composer (All Tracks)
Marco Cremaschini - Keyboards, Arrangements, Composer (All Tracks), Percussion 12
Marco Cocconi - Electric and Acoustic Bass - (All Tracks)
Federico Negri - Drums (All Tracks), Composer 5
Manuel Caliumi - Alto Saxophone (All Tracks), Composer 5
Laura Masotto - Violin 2, 8
Denise Dimè - Vocals, Lyrics 4
Dionne Draper - Vocals 9
Ernest Ikwanga - Guitars 2, 4, 11
Mauro Negri - Tenor Saxophone 1, 6, 10, 11
Federico Pierantoni - Trombone 1, 6 , 10, 11
Fulvio Sigurtà - Trumpet, Flugelhorn 1, 6, 10, 11
Donata Greco - Flute 1
Weedie Braimah - Percussion 8, 11
Maurizio Giannone - Percussion 4

Recorded, mixed and mastered at Digitube Studio, sound engineer Carlo Cantini

Executive Producer Louis Marks

Producers:
Isell Denson
Rosey Bloch
Natalia Semler
Jeff Bloch
Anna Perrino

Painting/Cover Art Elena Crisanti
Photography by Peter Abraham and Giacomo Pini
Graphics Monica Polato

For Isell Denson, Shirley Kellum, and Tony Allen

Much gratitude to James Morehead for essential feedback, webmaster extraordinaire Scott Williams from Cotts, inc. Digital Marketing, and Chris M. Slawecki, Senior Editor at All About Jazz. Your unwavering support since this was but a twinkle in our eyes has been invaluable.

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"Musically & vocally, NoteSpeak consistently changes, shifting from style to style – acoustic jazz solos into hip-hop beats into harmonized gospel vocals into electronic jazz and fusion into free verse rhyming – and yet seems to constantly groove... " All About Jazz Chris M. Slawecki ... more

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